Anxiety Update

Doing much better, thank you!!

In my previous post, I was having a rough few days because the medication for my mild-to-perhaps-medium case of obsessive-compulsive disorder had run out of steam, as such drugs periodically do.  I complained in detail about the rise of my old familiar symptoms, all of them hedges against largely unfelt anxiety.  A bit like the character Jill in my novel Sister India. (Sometimes I think it would be easier to be scared.)

I very much appreciate the thoughtful responses in the comments to that post.  Lots of good thoughts and personal stories.

And I now have a different drug that seems to be the right one and has kicked in fast.   Halleluia!  I feel like myself again.

Here's what I got out of (emerging from) my several down days:

*an awareness that I'd been sinking slowly without fully noticing

*a renewed gratitude for being alive

*happiness that I'm not living in premedication days when I'd have no alternative to being peculiar

*a renewed humility at seeing again that I have a problem I can't solve all by myself

*a bit of fresh zest

And the feeling that I'm glad I mentioned the whole business here: it was relieving to write it and to hear from people.

 

Categories: obsessive-compulsive disorder