Anxiety Update
Doing much better, thank you!!
In my previous post, I was having a rough few days because the medication for my mild-to-perhaps-medium case of obsessive-compulsive disorder had run out of steam, as such drugs periodically do. I complained in detail about the rise of my old familiar symptoms, all of them hedges against largely unfelt anxiety. A bit like the character Jill in my novel Sister India. (Sometimes I think it would be easier to be scared.)
I very much appreciate the thoughtful responses in the comments to that post. Lots of good thoughts and personal stories.
And I now have a different drug that seems to be the right one and has kicked in fast. Halleluia! I feel like myself again.
Here's what I got out of (emerging from) my several down days:
*an awareness that I'd been sinking slowly without fully noticing
*a renewed gratitude for being alive
*happiness that I'm not living in premedication days when I'd have no alternative to being peculiar
*a renewed humility at seeing again that I have a problem I can't solve all by myself
*a bit of fresh zest
And the feeling that I'm glad I mentioned the whole business here: it was relieving to write it and to hear from people.
Categories: obsessive-compulsive disorder
Comments
I am so glad to know that you are feeling better, Peggy. Thank God there are meds that can help so that we can feel "normal" once again!
Hugs,
Deb
Thanks, Deb. I have a great appreciation for the pharmaceuticals industry. I’m glad I wasn’t born an instant earlier — or later for that matter.
I agree, Peggy. When I was first diagnosed with this blasted illness in my twenties, there was nothing pharmaceutically that they could give me to help me to have a quality of life. Now, there are several different meds that help a bit.
May they continue to cook up more, Deb, so that it helps more than a bit.